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Wednesday, June 30, 2010

im wondering wad so wrong bout tat question, it's just a question n u gave me such big impact uhs. u say it's fragile, den i would say, if just cus of a question, it's even more fragile. afterall, i do feel ease seeing ur first reply, as i noe tat all along im right. but did u ever think back? why were i to ask such question, as simple as tat, NO SENSE OF SECURE. thinking back who am i to ask for a sense of secure fr u.. u just dun understand. u're always saying trust trust trust, nw im asking u, hw much trust u have on me? i do trust u, but on the other hand i dun trust myself, or i should say, ive no confident in myself at all. ppl asking, wad am i waiting for, i dunno either. thinking back for the past 5years ive been waiting be it who im wif, wait and wait, but at the end of the day i dun even noe wad im waiting for. it's really tiring waiting and waiting, esp when u wait in vain. did u ever think of hw am i feeling all tis while? nw let me tell u, WAITING. tat's the only word i could say. i dunno wad ure thinking, but if cus of such thing and things turn up lidat im really speechless. tossing on my bed the whole night, waiting for ur reply but none. ppl always say, singlehood is the best, but i dun enjoy it at all. 4months, for the first 2months i could say it's hell for me, after tat i start to vex over things i shouldnt have vex when im single. i used to like singlehood, as it's so carefree, but nw i simply hate it. seems like hanging there in the air. im vex, i feel the pain. ARGHH!!!!

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7:59 PM

hmmm, did something happen to u recently? wad's going on in ur life? didnt ask as i noe u wun even say it. tat's u, always keeping everything to urself, no matter hw unhappy u might be. cus u always believe in urself and u believe tat u can do it. tis make me kinda worry for u. u must be thinking hw come i would say or knew something wasnt right.. i have my way to =) and tat's the only way i could noe bout ur things. guess u must be really tired on ur work uhs? wild guessing is all i could do, as we have not been toking for tis week. hmmm, hopefully everything turns well and smooth for u ba. dun forget, u have a listening ear here =) miss u... a big hug for u as a moral support, i believe u can make it, u can overcome it *hugs* jiayou jiayou!!

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Tuesday, June 29, 2010

If someone wants to be part of your life, they'll make an effort to be in it. So dont bother reserving a space in your heart for someone who doesnt make an effort to stay.

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8:24 AM

思念让人感到无助与寂寞。你能做的唯有等待还是等待！等待的感觉并不好，总让人觉得寂寞，无奈，坐立不安。往往会迷失自己。这几天的感触很多，也想了很多。人都是自私的，永远都觉得不够。知足常乐嘛，说的简单，试问有多少人做的到？we r always asking for more. it's nv enough, tat's human nature. i would say, being understanding isnt easy, but not being understanding is just as simple as ABC. 好讽刺的话哦。做人嘛，每天都在学习，每天多在磨炼。看得开，每天都是快乐的一天。看不开，就只有苦了自己。如此简单的道理，看起来真的很简单，做起来有多么的困难。走过的每段路都是一堂课，遇见的每个人都是一位导师。跌跌撞撞让我们学会坚强，学会跌倒了自己爬起来的道理。路是自己选的，所以不管这条路有多么辛苦，多么艰难一定要咬紧牙关走下去。只要不断气，绝对不放弃。每个人的人生都不一样，所以嘛，不是每个人都能真正的体会你的心情。但也不表示他们不懂也不知道。听从别人的劝告，你不会吃垮反而会让你学会更多的东西。好啦，就学着开开心心的过每一天，生命是不能从来的。好好珍惜你的每一天和身边的每一个人吧！

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Monday, June 28, 2010

i just wanna blog, dun ask me why cus me myself dunno why either. dunno wad gt into me, i just feel so emo, restless and mood less tis few days. feel like isolating myself, i dunwan to stay at home. nothing bad happen and i would say im happy wif everything nw, but why am i lidat. at times i really hope u're here wif me, hope i could have a day wif u, just tat 24hrs and it's enough. but i noe it's impossible, u're too busy for it and due to ur work wise, so it's just my wishful thinking. i seriously hate tis feeling to the core, it sucks! ARRGHH!!! lose interest in everything, i just cant be bothered. I JUST FEEL LIKE CRYING OUT LOUD!!

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Sunday, June 27, 2010

i love my daddy and mummy so much! was craving for hougang mall western food in the noon, and they just called saying they were there and gonna tabao the western food for me, how great it is. haas!! best dinner of the week =) whoo hoo ~~ had a chat wif u on msn in the late noon, though it's just a normal conversation n i noe u're putting in ur effort =) thanks for ur everything, u melt my heart once again. i noe u're gonna be busy and i could understand, just put ur heart at ease and concentrate on ur stuff, no worries. like u've said, trust is the word. if i could give u the trust, hopefully u could do it too. well, i do miss u too, seriously. it's gonna be monday tml, monday blue!! haas.. there's so much things on my mind, yet i dunno wad to blog. been feeling really tired recently, no matter hw long i slp, it just doesnt seems to be enough. hopefully u can make it tml =)

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Friday, June 25, 2010

thanks god im feeling so much better. i actually tk panadol before slping last night, couldnt believe myself taking med, haas. slping too much causing backache, but been some times since i last get to slp for so long. 13hrs of slp, shiok!!! i miss my banana la, gone missing for a day. no reply of text and no call fr him, feel so weird =( guess u must be slping like a pig nw. i miss having lunch wif u la. where's the qiu lian ban mian tat u owe me, faster give it to me okay!

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9:45 PM

despite having diarrhea n damn tired ytd, i still had a great day. fun fun =) it's fri and im home, all thanks to tat stupid fever which came knocking on my door. i feel tat im like a sick cat, falling ill easily. cousin tot tat i give spot as i should be meeting them at 62 today. i just feel so weak, nose blocking like hell. i hate tis feeling. darn! i wan my u by my side la =( n i miss my wifey so much..

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Wednesday, June 23, 2010

ytd was the first time i ever thrown such big temper at u. im sorry, i dun mean it at all. i noe it tat u're really tired yet u still came dw. im really sorry =( wasnt happy ytd, hate it when ppl threaten me, i did my best to make everyone happy but i get back shit at the end of the day. lesson learned, instead of making everyone happy why not just let myself be happy. a big big thanks to sara, thanks for the lime juice. thou it really taste like PURE lime juice and my gastric cant tk it but its the tots tat counts =) i feel so contented and blissful for wad i have nw. having sucha wonderful mummy for always supporting me in wadever i do. a great daddy for always treating me like a princess. kor for wad he have done for me all tis while. wifey for showering me wif all the love and concern. my ladies for always standing by my side lending me their listening ears and a shoulder to cry on when i needed. cmw who act like as if he dun care but actually he do and showing me all the effort, guiding me the right path and teaches me lots of things in life. n of cus my baby gal for always cheering me up whenever im dw, sticking to me like as if i would leave her, slping by my side at night, waiting for me to be back whenever im out. i simply love my life to the max =)
知足才会得到快乐, 现在的我得到了我一直渴望的快乐。

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Tuesday, June 22, 2010

nv wanna get out of the house ytd, but after wifey nagging and nagging i still when to meet her. 75 for bian mian den V4. it's our first time there, have the feeling of sabai but it's more comfortable there. wifey actually decided to held her birthday celebration there.. LOL.. after V4 headed to geylang for frog leg, thumbs up!! NICE.. whahah.. here wanna wish xiao steph a happy 21st birthday, noe it tat u enjoy ur night as u're damn drunk =) finally we manage to meet up tml for our mini gathering and ladies night, darlings let it be a gd one uhs =) will be meeting belly bell for dinner first, think the last time we went for dinner was like a year ago le.. im looking forward to it =)
bad wifey gonna leave me for 2 to 3 weeks again =( i'll miss u!! but, do enjoy urself k? buy lotsa things for me yeas =) <3>

(*VICTOR SIM, tis is specially for u*)
remember wad u used to tell me years back? nw im saying it back to u. no matter wad, dun ever touch those stuff, it's nt the best solution to solve things. i noe tat things are not going well for u over there, but u got to hold on. i believe u can and u will. setback is not the end of the world, learn fr all ur mistake and u will success. u told me tis 2weeks ago, u wan me to be the happiest person and be in bliss, wadever happen i always have u there for me. nw i wanna say tis to u, i also wan u to lead ur life happily over there and i'll always lend u my listening ears whenever u need it and giving u all the moral support. remember, u're not alone =)

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Sunday, June 20, 2010

im so bored nw, so i should just compost something random. =) im homed, thanks for sending me home tis morning.. alright, i realise my hair is indeed long, so happy, it's like finally it get so long. whoo hoo~~ hmmm, a lill compliment for u cmw, u indeed look gd today =) the shirt just suits u, i like i like =) happy leis? LOL!! wondering should i tk a nap nt, im afriad if i were to nap nw tonight i cant get to slp again.. today gt triple combo.. menses cramp, stomach ache and there alot of wind in my stomach.. it's damn bloated *gosh* yet im still being stubborn, drinking cold drinks and tea when im not suppose to. hao ba, i shall stop drinking cold drink for the next 2days, whahaha... hopefully i could do it..

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8:43 PM

didnt went out for father's dinner tis year, instead we cook at home and mahjong session was the entertainment. meet up wif him at around 10plus den off to malaysia.. went to danga bay again, but tis time is to the beach, nice nice place and it's really relaxing.. the worst part is tat i gt to sit in the car like an idiot doing nothing while he's napping. complaining tat he's feeling damn tired and his 15mins nv end. currently at aunt place and will be going home tml morning. im not bored here as me and cousin is playing wif the web-cam and hell lots of fun =) well, really thanks for always trying ur best to spend time wif me whenever u're free and on ur off days =) thou time together is not long but it's enough.. i really appreciate everything u done, despite ur tireness u nv fail to bring me to places i wan. xie xie ni =)

*a lill post for daddy*

my dearest daddy, i love u for everything u gave me, if it's not u, there wun be me. thanks for always treating me like a lill princess, giving me everything i yearn for, always forgiving me on all the mistake i've made. thou at times u dun express out ur love and concern for me but ur action shows it all and i could see it. when u see me crying u would just treat it as u didnt see but asking mummy wad happening at the end of the day. always pampering me even more whenever u noe tat im dw or when im sick. lastly, DADDY I LOVE U!!

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Saturday, June 19, 2010

IM SO TIRED!!! ytd had dinner wif daddy, mummy and bro. a cat simply spoil my whole dinner, making me like a mad woman. after tat home, prepared and went dw to 62, after 62 to his work place to pass him things and off to peace centre as promised. it's really damn bored there, nv am i going again, since it's so bored there, decided to give u a surpise, nv did i expect wad's going to happen next. u can actually fall aslp inside, hw wonderful uhs.. today went to visit kammy, her injury is indeed bad. kinda worry for her seeing her in tis state. she just seems so normal which she shouldnt be. hopefully she will be strong enough to go thru all tis.. today suddenly 有种很深的感触 and i dunno why. feeling abit emo and moodless when nothing happen, could it be due to PMS? guess so..
tml is father's day, here wishing all daddy a happy father's day!

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Thursday, June 17, 2010

有没有问过自己以下的问题

当你感觉累了第一个想到的人是谁？
当你开心时第一个想到的人是谁？
当你伤心时第一个想到的人是谁？
当你感到无助时第一个想到的人是谁？
当你觉得委屈时第一个想到的人是谁？
当你想有个人在身边时第一个想到的人是谁？
当你在睡觉前第一个想到的人是谁？
当你睡醒后第一个想到的又是谁？

haas, tis post might be abit random, but i just feel so la =) well, will be getting out of my palace tonight, whoo hoo ~~ here i come.. *happy*

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9:01 PM

alright, im really a sotong, to have struggle burning mid-night oil for my BTT and i actually remember the wrong date and went for it one day later den the date itself. hw wonderful.. ytd was a bad day. hear a bad news bout a fren and her bf. hopefully she can be strong and go thru everything. came back at night and there's tis accident at my house downstairs. a cab run over a poodle and the poodle actually die on the spot. so heart breaking. the worst thing is tat the driver didnt stop and tk a look and he actually drove off even faster. irresponsible!! karma will befall on him.. reckless driver!!!! DARN!! feel tat life is so fragil, u can be around in the noon and might be gone later in the night. treasure every moment wif ur loved one and say out wad u wanna say in ur heart before it's too late.. cherish is the word..

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Tuesday, June 15, 2010

it's really an awesome night.. had dinner at tiong baruh plaza (thai express). actually was going for bie fu ramen but it's full so settle dw at thai express instead. since it's still early decided to go for a walk at resort world and we headed to Universal Studio, we even get to see the musical fountain there, damn nice & beautiful. it's really a nice place i can say, and of cus if u go wif the right person it will be even better =) after tat back to vivo for movie(karate kid). nice movie, it's much more better den the show we watch last week(a nightmare on elm street). i really had an enjoyable night thou both of us is feeling so tired.. thanks so much, whoo hoo~~ going for my BTT tml, hope i will pass, time to burn mid-night oil.. bye peeps =)

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Sunday, June 13, 2010

ytd was indeed a wonderful day. it's my family day, whoo hoo~~ went to aunt new house and stayed over night there. cooked dinner for them and im really tired. tot i could have a gd slp at night but i was wrong, i didnt slp well at all. in the morning i still tot tat i actually woke him up in my dreams. but actually i did call him be4 i get back to slp, hw funny it is. hmmm, u didnt make me pissed ytd, instead i feel tat u're being sweet, haas. maybe cus u're feeling tired tat's y. but i like it =) IF ONLY u were to be lidat everyday, hw wonderful will it be yeas.. currently im feeling so damn tired. been 6 days since we last meet, the feeling wasnt gd =( well, should be content tat we did tok on the phone everyday except fri.

i misses u badly......

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Saturday, June 12, 2010

having gastric pain tis few days and at times the pain is indeed unbearable, hell lots of suffering. well, im home on fri and sat, hw wonderful. been months since i stay home without going out for a week. thinking should i go up to aunty 8 house tml, feel like going as ive yet to see her new house, on the other hand i wanna go eat bie fu la mian. hmmm, shall see hw things goes tml yeas. had a great slp last night, i love sat so much!! i seriously misses those day when u ladies r around and we will club till morning and had fun all night long, we use to have our ladies night at least once a month, unlike nw. been 3months since we last had our ladies night le... i misses those days =(

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Thursday, June 10, 2010

im really damn tired, pyshcally tired =( been 3weeks le, no matter hw late i slp i still gt to wake up at 8.30 to morning call u, afraid tat u cant wake up in the morning for ur day job. DETERMINATION is the word, yes, endure. i can de, but i really dunwan those dark ring and eye bag, they r so ugly!!!!

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8:10 PM

when u dont understand, when u dont see his plans. when u cant trace his hands, trust his heart!..

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6:55 AM

有时真的好想静静的拥抱你，轻轻的在你耳边说，不要这么辛苦了，是时间该好好的休息了，多爱自己一点，打开心房好好的看看在你身边的人。不要认为没人会为你心疼，因为真的有个人一直默默的为你心疼，不想看到你那么辛苦。

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Wednesday, June 9, 2010

feeling was indeed bad today. was still wondering should i accept tat job offer as the working hrs is really wrong. if i were to accept i would hve no time wif u le, when i knock off u're already at pub. been thinking ever since i recieve the call ytd. hmmm, nw i have a conclusion.. remember once we was toking and i told u to nu li in order to yang wo, thou im just kidding n ur reply was y not i nu li or we nu li together, and tis is the motivation.. and fr wad u say today really make me make up my mind on accepting tis job. the feeling u gave me today is so so different fr the past. did i actually think too much or my senses is right? u ask me am i afraid as u're a bad guy. to be true i am, im really scare. but still i wanna believe myself and also believe u. but if wad u said was real den i could only accept the fact tat im indeed dumb and stupid to have believe wad u said all tis while and tat i nv learn my lesson again. also means tat im gonna fall hard again tis time. pls dun let tis happen.

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9:27 AM

Tuesday, June 8, 2010

a day to remember, 07/06/2010.

when for movie and it's the first time we watch movie together, " a nightmare on elm street "
it's nt a really gd one and im kinda disappointed in the show. no story line and it's abit lame thou it do "chua" u a little here and there. before tat had dinner at Aiji-tei if i didnt spelled wrongly, the food there really sucks. it will be my first and also the last time to dine there. after movie when to 75 for ban mian, and yes it's nice, thumbs up! the standard is still as gd as before =) whoo hoo~~ wifey u must be damn envy right as u have been craving for it, we shall go again one day. well, i really did enjoy my day, thanks for everything despite feeling so tired once again, appreciated!

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7:47 AM

Monday, June 7, 2010

what's on my mind now. i seriously felt so insecured since last night.

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Sunday, June 6, 2010

i really hate it when u show attitude and temper at me for nth, im not the worm in ur stomach, i wun noe wad u're thinking unless u say it out. im angry wif myself, i feel tat ive changed. on u i actually swollow all my attitude and temper as i dunwan history to repeat. i dun wish to quarrel wif u over such things. i noe if i were to show u attitude also things gonna be bad. at times i really dunno wad u really wan fr me, im so angry angry angry! wad if i were to also do tat to u, hw will u feel? all along u noe it tat my temper and attitude wasnt gd but have i shown u all tis for NTH be4? darn!! ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!!!!

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5:34 AM

Saturday, June 5, 2010

finally had my craving tis afternoon, * qiu lian ban mian *. nice nice wors =) next craving will be G7 frog leg. been months since i last stay at home on a sat night, so wasted. but still i feel relax, at least dun have to drink. i feel so damn bored, and im missing u badly la... i wan movie tml!!

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Thursday, June 3, 2010

i feel happy, i should say i feel happy everyday wif u around. weee~~ ur effort had been seen, n i could feel it. thou at times i still doubt but it's getting lesser after seeing things tat u've done. and please stop melting me, my heart isnt tat strong =) i wan qiu lian ban mian, been 2days le, arrghh!! as for my little baby gal, been neglecting her recently and yes she is throwing temper wif me, no longer stick to me when im at home, she even slp wif mummy instead of me, saddening. gonna spend more time wif her le... AND its weekend again.. im gonna be busy busy..

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10:44 PM

Wednesday, June 2, 2010

serious mood swing today, im unhappy really unhappy!! i dun wish to tok, dun wish to tok at all!

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Tuesday, June 1, 2010

dreamt of u again, and it's really a sweet one. haas! thanks to u tat i didnt get to slp well the whole night. wondering did u reach home safely. thinking back, u're so tired should be slping soundly le. wanted to slp den remember u didnt on ur hp hw am i gonna morning call u to wake u up. ended up i didnt get to slp well. dmub dumb u. dislike it when u act a strong front, thou i noe u dun mean wad u say but of cus if u were to say it in a nicer way i would listen. haas =) stupid boy. ask me to be gentle to u den cant u just be gentle to me.....? LOL!!

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